Dec. 31, 1873
I have been so bothered and felt so discouraged to-day that I have been right unhappy. God grant me a happier year this next.
Jan. 21, 1875
…I drudge and worry to no avail. Lose money and temper and hope. I feel so unlike a lady in my externals that I have no doubt I shall be less of a lady in reality…never having one day of leisure or pleasure in which I can be my own old self again. Lord send me a fool who wants to pay a good price for this place.